The Pagan Blog Project: E is for Eternity and Endings
Last week I posted some of my general thoughts about death. Truth is, I have a lot of fear and anxiety concerning death. I understand it as a biological ending, but the idea of the nothingness, or perhaps the dissolving of the ego into a greater whole, or even some other version of an afterlife, is something I can’t grasp. It scares me because I don’t have control over it, and have no idea what to expect.
Psychologists generally expect every human being to start facing the reality of death once they reach age forty and beyond. For me I’ve given great thought to it since before I was a teenager. It would always start when I would imagine the the universe and would utterly fail at being able to comprehend infinity. This would often lead to actual terror.
Thus leading to the desperate spiritual journey. Oddly, I have no more answers than before, just a little more peace in not knowing. I am still afraid, but by gradually understanding more of the divine, I am less so.
This is short this week, but I felt it important to write as it’s a significant part of my path.